Weird, Luke, Weird !

 Ok had a conversation with Luke last night and I think i know him even less than I thought..

When I told him that i was falling for him his reaction was, that’s sweet.  OK I can handle that, he does’t feel quite the same as me yet. Then further into the conversation we were talking about the possibility of me having to move out from my current place where I share with my ex. I have two options, find my own place but I’ll have little spare cash to see Luke OR go back and live with my parents for a while again which wouldn’t be good for Luke and me and also I’d have to give the dog back to the Kennels as I couldn’t keep him and my Ex couldn’t either because his job takes him away now and then. Luke then proceeded to tell me that he wanted to say that "WE" would work it out ie find a place together…..  WTF, you can’t share your feelings with me but are happy to move in !   Seems the wrong way around to me but ok

Luke yesterday told me that he’d told his mother about me which is great because he’d told me that it was a big deal and he’d never told his mother about any previous partners which he’d pretty much said their wasn’t many of.  His reaction to telling his mum however was very much like it wasn’t a big deal at all despite what he’d said only a few days before. Don’t get me wrong I’m pleased that he’s told her, that’s some form of commitment from him.

And there is more…..  

All the time we’ve dated he’s always made himself out to be very shy and very innocent and when I mentioned this as part of the parent conversation he says to me that he’s far from innocent etc etc…  I don’t know quite what to make of it. I’ve been nothing but up front about my personal life but it’s got me thinking that he’s not the person he originally led me to believe..  I have a feeling he’s been more times round the block than Lance Armstrong (can’t say why, it’s very personal) and that sit’s a little uneasy with me even though i know it shouldn’t..

As it stands now I just don’t think I know him, in fact I feel like I know him less now than before…    It’s kept me up a lot of the night thinking 🙂

No hugz today, i’m to tired

Bearcub