It Should have been me……..

wow !!!

Just had a surprise..  not in a good way either…

For those that have read my diary from some time ago, in fact many years ago you’ll know the name Richard, in particular my friend from Boston…

Well he found me on facebook..  it’s been years since we chatted so was lovely to find him again as we’d lost contact

BUT…. (and just bear with me here)

He’s not only partnered but engaged to be married !!

I’M very very happy for him, I’m so pleased he’s found "the one" BUT…. it came as a shock.. it kinda knocked me sideways…

So just to re-cap..
I’ve known him for well over a decade
We had an on/off kinda afffair.. 
he loved me, I loved him..
Me in the UK, Him in the USA
Distance got in the way…

It surprised me that it would affect me so much but it did !!

I’m still very happy for him though, it just caught me by surprise..

I still maintain he’s the greatest love affair I’ll never have…

I hearby give notice of letting go…. 

All the best Richard, I will always love you.. 
Bearcub
xxxx