Day 1 complete

Finished day 1 of the bar. I don’t want to jinx anything but I’m feeling okay. The software for the remote bar crashed on a ton of people. They got locked out of their test and were on hold for HOURS to get back into the bar. I’m hoping tomorrow goes smoothly. Today was essay day. Not really sure how I did, but I feel better than last time. I knew the first question, knew NOTHING for the second one, not really sure if I knew the third one but I got stuff down and it felt… okay. Fourth essay is where I shined, I wish all of them were like that one and wish I had more time to spend on that one. Fifth essay was kind of a shitshow but I got answers down. Sixth essay actually went okay, not my strongest, but I felt good about half of it. We also had two MPTs and I usually run out of time on them but I forced my to keep writing and I think I did decent on both, but it’s hard to know. Those are the hardest to do online because it’s a big packet and you have to organize your thoughts. And usually you would have it in front of you, so you could underline and take notes in the margins and flip back to and forth through the pages, but all in all, they felt okay. I’m guessing I did pretty average on them.

Tomorrows all multiple choice. At least I know what topics to expect. Hoping for nothing too crazyyyyy. Praying it’s not like last time. I keep telling myself that I’m half way done. That I never have to do those stupid essays again. That after tomorrow I never have to answer a bar question again. I know I’m going to feel like shit after the bar. I know it. It just sucks the life out of you.

In other news, my dog died and my apartment has no electricity. Fun stuff. Stuff that I’m not letting myself deal with right now. I just want my life back. It’s been a year of SHIT.