09/27/2013

Tomorrow we are going to a wedding. One of Mich’s old coworkers is getting married. She’s been with her bf just about as long as Mich and I have been together. If it was legal, Mich and I would probably be planning our wedding for next year after she’s done with school.
 
We are excited for the wedding. The bride’s having a Man of Honor and has many gayboys helping her with the wedding. The shower was fantastic and for the wedding she’s planned an “after party” after the reception, since they only have the room until 10 p.m. We are old and riding along with another friend, so we probably won’t go to the after party, but we can’t wait for the event. Mich has been feeling sick this week and I said something about staying home if she wanted to and just sending a card with money, but she said she would have to be vomiting to miss this event. LOL I’m looking forward to getting dressed up and having some fun. It’s been a while.
 
I pulled an old suit out of the back of my closet. You know… back-of-the-closet-clothes are ones that you don’t fit into anymore. But much to my delight, I fit into it again. So, instead of having to buy a whole new outfit for the wedding, I just bought some shoes. And borrowed a little black clutch from a friend, so I’m all set. Mich sorta coordinated her outfit with mine. Hopefully we’ll get a good picture.
 
Work has been going well. I feel like I’ve settled in. I can’t believe it’s been 7 months. I still feel a little edgy that I’m perceived as not doing “enough.” But I stay honest for the most part. I mentioned to my boss that I am pretty caught up and have more time if he needs something. So now I’ve been assigned extra work. I’ll be assisting our Miami office with some marketing stuff. Reviewing everything with the current assistant was a bit overwhelming. She was pretty scattered when she was talking to me and got interrupted about 5 times in the hour we talked. I keep reminding myself of these things so I don’t feel like a complete failure. I’m kinda scared of the new stuff. I’ve never been very confident when it comes to leasing. And since the reports will go out to a lot of people including the owners of the company, it’s intimidating because if I mess up, there’s only me to blame. She promised we’ll take it slow and she’ll hold my hand as I’m learning. On the positive side, they keep saying I can go down to Miami again if I want to. Who knows, maybe I’ll be bringing Mich with me over the New Year holiday.
 
As I mentioned, I can see myself here at least until Mich is done with school and finds a new job. The commute is hard on me and unless it gets a lot busier I won’t be completely happy. It probably sounds stupid to complain about not being busy, but I’m so uncomfortable when I have to “appear” busy. I base my self-worth at work on how much I do. So a lot of times, the slowness will make me feel like I’m being perceived as incompetent.
 
I regret choosing Fridays as a day to come into the office. It’s the worst day for traffic. But, Mich and I have agreed that I won’t be cooking dinner on Fridays. Actually, I rearranged my workout days so now I’m off on Friday nights. I tried it last week and I just can’t do it. So, either she’ll pick up sushi for us tonight or I’ll get something on the way home.
 
As you can tell, I’m trying to commit to writing more often here. I’ve fallen out of the habit and I want to get back into it. I used to write daily and I probably won’t get back to that level, but a few times a week would be nice.