7.4.21(alone is not necessarily lonely)

• Listening to “Summertime in Paris” by Jaden 

Way too much pent up energy. So much so, that the tatted, hazel eyed, sandy brown haired random I met online was the unexpected yet sorta sought out release. (Her watching me climax somehow felt less than I’d imagine it would.) 

Kinda tired of telling myself that I’m bad for it. No wife or girlfriend means exactly that. (I’ve even felt like my energy is off after my escapades. Then I remind myself that such is like shade of jealous gay guys at the gym is bulls*** I tell myself. Today felt like it was the right time tho. Having so many at my disposal can be helpful, but it can also depress the connections you could have with one.)

There’s so much I wanna open up about, and the cool thing about the page, is that “she” always welcomes you…

Passionfruit by Drake 

It’ll be cool to take a day off tomorrow, but if the gym hours are the same, I’ll do a 6:00 pm session (unless I go sooner).

Sometimes I think the self talks are taking its toll a tad. Still, when I say what I’ve done, how well I’ve done it alongside of spacial peace, I feel happy about who I am. (It also gives anxiety about how far this will all go…)

Feels Like Summer by Childish Gambino 

There’s no problems. It’s called peace of mind. In the powerful yet subtle words of Mr. Mayer, “don’t be afraid to walk alone & like it…”

Already Best Friends by Jack Harlow 😉

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