Love Fail

Life has been amazing to me. I’ve been blessed and highly favored since we I was a young kid. But in the areas of Love, I’ve failed some many times. From confession to three different guys, being rejected by them and to find out 6 years later one of them did have feelings for me but didn’t want to stand between my move or stay with him. The two relationships I’ve held I virtually cheated on them, but split up amicably. To growing feelings to my best friend and holding back because he is in a relationship to being with him for two weeks after his breakup to feeling like I’ve been used bc he knows I would never turn my back on him. I feel at a lost. I know that I’ve so much goodness in my heart to give but also feel lacking self confidence when it comes to relationships. Professionally I feel amazing. However in love I feel like a total failure.