Not the worst thing you’ve caught me doing
Title from: Iron Man
Thoughts keep going through my mind. The past, the present, what the hell the future might be. Its worse than before though. The endless thoughts kept me up, unable to sleep. Then I’d write. Songs, poetry, stories, lists, anything that came to mind. The muses swirled around me, keeping me company as the early morning hours passed by. Now I feel tired so often, I want to sleep. Maybe I’m tired of the world around me.
I know that I’m lonely. My best friend moved away and got married. My girlfriend and I broke up and she’s now in a different city (not because of the break-up). The few other friends that I have live in other cities. My car isn’t working and I have to time to work on it with school going on. I have to wait until the semester ends. So I sit at home, read, play video games, watch movies. Even when you’re used to being alone doesn’t mean that you like it.
Nice guys seem to end up being alone more often. Why is that? So easy to talk to, gets along with all different types of people. But we’re usually so alone.
You talk to so many people you get an understanding of human nature. You know how you’re different, you know who you are. You can see other people. That’s why we get along so well with some people and dislike others so much. We can see the truth inside someone. See those things that people normally cover with the socially acceptable facade. Is that why we’re alone? Can people sense that we see more than others?
It might be that way. It might be something else completely. Writing so much truth and so much fiction tends to blur the line of prose. The mystical in the normal and the logic in the illogical. The muses don’t keep me company as often. Maybe they’ve gotten into getting to sleep earlier too.
-Damien
You remind me a lot of my friend Dan from back in Maine. (Dan-O on my myspace). He talks of the same things. You two are very much alike and I love you both a lot. I wish I could hang out with you but you live far away and Josh would get jealous. He and I are very jealous people. I consider you a dear friend. Your a great person honey and I hate that you feel lonely. *hugs*
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ah… yes.. the nice guys do seem to spend their time alone.. You’re much more open than my ex, but he was always so accepting no matter if he disagreed with me (and believe me, i pushed his boundaries)… anyway, Justin is a nice guy too.. He was 34 before he and I got together.. it happens when it happens. I fully expected to be single forever and I was alright with that. but I also hadn’t been alone .. ever.. so I craved it (still do but my time will come, everyone’s does).. to be fair though and no offense, you’re working with people from Tx.. that can be a stretch sometimes… Don’t get me wrong, they’re nice out there.. but they’re stubborn and stuck if you ask me. I can say that too because I lived in TX for a few years 🙂 So I can trash all I want.. and I spent a month in TX in 2007..
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Your title caught my eye, loved Iron Man. 🙂 Just thought that I’d stop by and say hello.
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Added you to my faves. 🙂
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I love that quote! I’m sorry you’re lonely. I’ve been there and I know how it feels. 🙁 I’m always roaming around online, so don’t be shy! Love ya, hon! RYN: You’re too sweet 😉
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ryn: yes! the tres leches cake is SO good 🙂 i havent tried this one yet , but i’m hoping it will be good. it has caramel and milk in it
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“The muses don’t keep me company as often. Maybe they’ve gotten into getting to sleep earlier too.” …very entertaining.
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Nice guys do seem to end up being alone alot. Nice girls as well. It shouldn’t be that way. I wouldn’t let you be alone…:). RYN: I have a paypal account (I’m pretty sure anyway) I’ve never used it though
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Chin up Sweetie ~ hugs,
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