Hold on, we’re goin for a ride…

Good eve to all. I have much to talk about and you may not believe it all, but I think that matters little. I write as things are and no less, no more. I’m with someone. I can’t really say meet because that is the wrong word. We’ll call her Rinoa. I met Rinoa about two years ago…my first year of college. There was something about her from the start, something about us. Something that neither of us expected or knew of. My friend and roommate of the time, who we’ll call GL told me about her. Even before I thought of anything the words “I have to meet her.” came out of my mouth. I suprised myself. But at the same time it felt right…I felt I had to meet her. One night GL and I were just hanging out, doing nothing in particular. And the phone rang. He answers it and talks for a little bit. Then he walks outside (we were on the second floor of a two floor dorm hall) and yells, “Rinoa!” and then laughs into the phone. He waves down toward the bottom floor and then comes back in and hangs up the phone. I gave him that questioning look of mine and he said, “Rinoa’s here.” She had come with a group of friends..about four or five of them. A little later she came up with those friends and I saw her for the first time. There was something about that first time that forever imprints in my mind. Keep in mind I didn’t know what she looked like, GL had never given me even a rough discription. But when they came in, her and I looked up at the same time, at each other. We smiled at each other and I felt this warm feeling go through me. It wasn’t until at least ten mintues later that I found out it was her tho. We started talking that night and kept up talking between the net and when she would come and visit. It didn’t take us long to start having feelings for each other. But they were deeper than just love. It felt like something familiar, something destined. But as close as we came to this wonderous experience, it was interupted. I won’t waste time with all the things that got in the way. But maybe there were reasons for things getting in the way. Maybe we still needed to grow more on our own selves. In any case, things got in the way and then we lost contact all together. I was devestated. I felt if someone had pulled something out of me. But at the same time I kept going on..almost as if I knew that we’d see each other again. Actually, I was sure we would. In time things changed, as things always do, but I still thought of her, remembered her. Then almost a week ago I was just online as usual and I happened to pop up my buddy list for seemingly no reason, glanced at it and then popped it back down. Then I just stopped. I thought, “I just didn’t see that did I?” I popped the list back up and sure enough her name was on it. I knew she couldn’t see me cause I had changed my screen name since the time we last talked. My heart was beating fast and I was almost, I don’t know, spellbound. I messaged her and for a second was sure there would be no reply. But there was. We talked on there and then I called her. We talked and talked and talked almost all night. We planned to get together the next night after I got off work. I was so excited at work. I couldn’t wait. Then the moment was finally there and I walked out into a light sprinkle. The night smelled fresh and new with the recent rainfall. The stars sparkled in the sky. I felt if I was walking slowly and moving fast. There was this moment where everything seemed to be in slow motion and I saw her. She told me to get in and we drove to her house. We talked and looked at each other and couldn’t believe it. It was familiar, destined again. And that night we talked and finally we kissed. And with that kiss we knew. Everything we had before we had lost each other came back and it felt like even more. Almost as if we had loved each other through several lifetimes. I can’t even describe the feeling. As much as I write, as much as I craft and shape and form words I cannot think of a single word to describe the feelings I feel other than her name. Everything I had been feeling lately. All the depression, the lonliness, the sadness, all those things and more just evaporated like fog in sunlight. I know how all this sounds. Believe me I know, the peanut gallery of my rational mind has been having a field day with this. But it is a murmered voice in the back of my head, something not heard, something I do not answer back. All I know is love and that is all I need to know. But for now I must sleep. Beautiful dreams to all.

Tenchi

“…the cultivation of the mind, the body, and the soul, and we must always cultivate the soul.”