Contemplating My 600 Pound Life

After grocery shopping last night, I turned the TV to TLC and saw that "My 600 Pound Life" was going to be on after "My Crazy Obsession." I know TLC to have these somewhat sensationalized shows because in the morning all they have is baby-related shows. My curiosity was piqued though and so we watched just to get an idea into the psyche of these people.

I felt that it was a little light on the psychology of becoming that morbidly obese. I have watched many seasons of "The Biggest Loser" and they present some of the psychology if not just for the sake of drama or gossip. Exercising is pretty easy – you just have to do something. That’s only 10% of the battle though really and so the psychology (which leads to over-eating) is the most important part. The biggest thing I saw is that no one said that being overweight is a problem. There wasn’t any ugency to curb that behavior. Yes, there was something deeper such as the person being sexually abused at a young age – but that was stated as just a matter-of-fact rather than really diving into that event and how that rewires a person’s emotional core. The husband who assumed a caretaker role could’ve also been analyzed since he enabled the situation. I definitely didn’t feel enlighted after watching the show, so I fell to sleep easy afteward.

There is a part of my life did come up yesterday that is somewhat of a burden that might be equivelent to 600lbs: My family.

I actually haven’t talked or seen my mother and sister since Christmas. Those who read regularly may not be surprised to know that there hasn’t been so much as a phone call attempted by her. Yes, I haven’t tried either and I am obviously the bigger person in the relationship though. I said to Twin yesterday that in this situation I actually feel like the ball is in my court. I feel empowered to stand and say I am not obligated to attend family events (Easter is coming up). Twin and I have a million other things we could be doing that day and all of them much more thrilling and productive than seeing my family. I’m not going to reach out to my mom in sort of trying to get her to stand up and be an adult.

I have the thought that maybe she’s attempting to see if we showed up without talking to her. Logically this would tell her that my grandparents keep us in the loop and our alligences are infact with them more so than her. I can only imagine the flak I’m taking in the brooding my mom and sister have been wallowing in since Dec. 25th.