When your head hurts from crying

I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anybody. It’s miserable. All I’m left with are questions? Why????? Why interrupt my life if you had no intention of loving me properly? S managed to ruin the rest of my birthday. My day period. All over sex. Damn I meant nothing to him but sex? And money? How do you go through life being heartless and lacking empathy? How? You had both of your parents in your life and they loved you. How did you turn out this way? How can you hurt me so bad and it not bother you? So many questions I’ll never get the answer to. I sure hope God is seeing this and making plans. I can’t take this anymore.