I has a duh…

So, he cane to me, asked me what i wanted from him.

Did i write about this, yet?

I told hik to be a good dad, don’t abandon her, we can be friends, because what i want is irrelevant.

I said not a word about sex.

Hmm.

Anyway,  topic turned straight to fwb, and he doesn’t think he could be w me without falling for me, again.

But then quickly went to when?

I said Sunday.

I mean, we started off as fwb.

Had some good times,  too.

He needs to date me. Okay adult shit but honestly,  i couldn’t be with anyone else.

Not sexually.  What i did in my 30s, and how i struggled not to go back to that dark moment… he won’t ever understand.

He said i probably already had a dude, and thats his bipolar mania  screaming, he amsaid sorry he won’t bother me, anymore.

He will see living apart is better for the both of us, right now.

He doesn’t respect me. I don’t respect me, but i have his child and

I do still love him, very much. I haven’t been laid in weeks.

High sex drive and nothing helps.

Just have to ignore him, tomorrow.

Yuuup

This is hard.