Leave it to asshole….

to fuck up the rest of my birthday. He literally gives no shit that today is that day for me. If we are “just friends” and he had no hard feelings towards the break up, then WHY is he acting like an ass to me? Why is it that he can be so heartless just because I stopped having sex with him? Why does he feel the need to talk down to me, snap at me, if he had no hard feelings? This is why I broke it off, but it also why I was hesitant to make it official (he has a way of making me feel worse than I already do, and not care one bit about it). I can’t stand it, and I WILL get out of here. I was going to try to apply for the full time position at the second job, but even that won’t be enough for what I need to do. I somehow got locked out of the website for wrong log in info, so I have to wait until that clears up to even try it. So I just applied for a deli job at Walmart (I hear they pay at least $15 an hour) and I hope to get it because that would help me out a lot. By itself, at 40 hours a week, I could live off of that. It would meet the income requirements for sure (with 2400 before taxes), for the apt I tried to get today. However, if I work part time at this job and my second job, I stand to make at least $3000-$3200 a month (before taxes). I could breathe a little easier with that. I think that may be what I do, at least for now. Eventually I will quit the second job and only work the one, even tho I really like the second job. That’s one of the reasons I’m considering staying at the second job a while longer.  Plus if I work two, I can actually afford to get insurance, which I currently do not have, so that’s a plus. The extra money would help balance out insurance costs. I will do a check up on my application in a few days and hope for the best. If I can bring home decent money, I can finally get out of this damn apt with these damn assholes.

Before I end this, lemme give you a recap as to why I wrote this entry with that title….

(he comes home from work)

Me: hey

Him: hey

Me: Do you feel like going to the store?

Him: Nope, just got home from a store (even tho he’s taken ME to the damn store right after I got off work)

(He sets his shit down and goes in the kitchen to unload the dishwasher)

Him: Why didn’t you ask me to pick up something (in a tone that was condescending)

Me: (feeling down now) I was just trying to plan dinner

So while he is in the kitchen, I get up and grab chops out the freezer and set them on the counter and I sit back down

Him: Oh you don’t have to worry about cooking for me, I’ll figure out something (still condescending)

After which, he decides to run hot water over the chops  in the sink (in the freezer bag) and goes in the back to shower or roll up a blunt or whatever. He clearly sees I am upset, clearly sees I have tears of hurt behind his actions, and he completely ignores me. Then after some time he comes out of the room to grab a chair so he can go smoke with his son and watch him play a video game.

And that folks, is why I have to leave. I’M SICK OF THIS SHIT. I’m not even sad the relationship is over, but being treated like this is why I decided to leave. Knowing that he’d do this, is why I was so very hesitant to make it official, even tho the relationship was dead. Even tho he does this shit anyway, it’s worse when he’s totally pissed at you for doing what is right for YOU. He’s mad that I took his power away, and now he wants to make me suffer. What an fucking asshole! He better hope I don’t tell his parents what really goes on around here!