Hello there

I don’t have the energy to come up with a real title, so this will have to do. This probably won’t be long, just wanted to stop and post something real quick lol. This weekend has been aggravating, most of it being from the deli job, some from the boy who would be man, known as S around here lol. I don’t have the energy to get into that tonight, but I am still working towards my goal of getting TF out of here. I am thinking about trying to get my old call center job back, which they have a facility in a city that’s about 3 hours or so from where I live now. Yeah I’d be moving to a city alone, but if it means being happy I’m all for it. I don’t have any real attachments here, so I can pretty much go wherever I want. So I’m gonna pray about it, but in the mean time I am going to look over my resume to make sure it’s decent, I’ll probably have my friend look over it. I’d have a real job for once with some actual benefits lol, I’d just need an apt. It’s not listed as remote anymore, so if I do this application and get called for an interview I will have to get my ass up there and I’ll have to get myself an apt not too far from the facility  (since I won’t have my own car yet). So all in all, things are slowly starting to look up.

School is still going good, just did two annoying ass videos for an assignment. I hope he’s not too harsh in grading, I really don’t have time to do some of these assignments, but I’m doing my best to keep up. I’m too close to mess up now, too close to being done to stop now. I’m reaching for that damn degree, I am ready lol .

As for my love life, meh. Ya’ll know how I feel about my current living situation with S. I can’t wait to get away from here. I’m either gonna move into my own apt here or my own apt in another city, I just wanna get the job first so I won’t have to worry about finding work or having to start over AGAIN. I’m sick of starting over lol. I haven’t really have much opportunity to see Anthony at work, but my anxiousness in hoping to see him has died down some. Still, when I do see him I smile. I only seem to get a brief passing lately, but it’s cool lol. It’s getting busier at work so less time for small talk or more than just hey. The other day I was on a register and I saw him, but I didn’t look up I just focused on my nails (something I do when I am bored or nervous lol), so when he passed he made it a point to speak and says “hey pretty girl” before heading into the break room. It was nice, and it made me smile. I didn’t really see him much of the day while I was at work, but I did catch him again at the end of my shift as I was cleaning the training room and he was in the same area I was. He saw me first and said ” have a good night dear” It was nice to be acknowledged lol. Today, somewhere in the middle of my 4 hour shift, he came strolling in. I saw him coming, but I was at self check out and talking to a coworker about how the day was going (which was too damn busy), and I know he saw me. So in passing, he smiles and says “hey girl” (if he called me pretty I didn’t hear him lol, it was noisy), and he runs his fingers along the back of my left shoulder. It took a lot for me to maintain my composure because it felt kind of good lol. When he passed I was like “hey dear, how are you” but he didn’t hear me because I wasn’t very loud and like I said it was noisy today as there were a lot of people. I really wasn’t trying to call him dear, it just came out lol. The girl I was talking to was oblivious as to what was going on with me and Anthony, but that’s the way I prefer it (for now). People are too damn nosey and messy lol. I’m not gonna lie, I wanted more time, and shit a hug would have been nice. Still….all in due time. If it’s gonna happen, it’ll happen. No sense in worrying over it now. It did make me smile tho, and when the girl was back to her register I smiled big AF lol. I did see him more during this shift than I had in a while, but always from a distance. I saw him as i was leaving, but he didn’t see me. It’s just as well, I had to get in asshats car to go home, lol.

Well I am gonna get off this thing and chill. Thankfully I am off work in the morning. I don’t go back to my second job until the afternoon. PHEW, now I am going to get some homework done before work, but this girl is going to sleep in. I haven’t been able to do that in a while lol.