Not crazy afterall

After the response on that last entry, I am glad to know I am not alone.  I felt like I was the only insane person in this whole wide world that felt the way I did.  I am glad to know I am not alone. 

Stephen and I haven’t talked about it since then.  It truly is a subject we both try to avoid.  You know, the whole "elephant in the room" type of thing. 

I want more babies, I dont know if that feeling will ever go away.

There’s a lady that I know, she has 6 kids, she wanted to keep going but her mother and her husband told her enough was enough, so reluctantly after the last one she got her tubes tied.  Much like my situation, funny huh?!?!  Anyways, I remember her telling me once that she had never gotten over that, she still ached and longed for more children, and it wasn’t her choice to stop. 

So yeah, it will probably never go away. 

Even if I did get to have another, who’s to say I would be able to VBAC?  I asked the Dr. when I was pregnant with Stephen, she said sure, but then when it came down to it she said no.  I remember being soooooo upset.  Anyways…….

Enough about it for now.  It really brings me down.

So, I have avoided Pinterest like the plague…….really didn’t want to get into it.  But with Stephen being gone all the time, I can’t sleep and I find myself VERY bored.  For the first half of the week while he was gone I played games on Facebook…….last night I ventured out to Pinterest.  Found some cute things there.  Yesterday my mom and I were cleaning out her closets in the house, getting rid of clutter, and she was emptying her closet, getting rid of some of dads old clothes.  Of course it made us both sad, I took some and left some.  Last night on Pinterest I found an idea of taking old mens shirts and turning them into dresses/jumpers for little girls.  So, I got inspired.  Today I made Brooke a dress and Stephen a tie, gotta get him a shirt for it, going to put a pocket from dads shirt on his shirt so he will have that and a tie.  I have decided that they will take our family pics in those outfits in the next few weeks.  I was excited to find the idea and to save dads shirts, so to speak.  After I finished it, I sent a picture to my brother and sister and asked if they knew what it was…..both immediately responded with "dads shirt" that made my heart smile.  I miss my dad.

Ok, I guess I will head off now.  Got family to tend to.  😉