Following my nose

I am sooo over constantly feeling sick.  I utterly hate this.  This morning, the breakfast I had made my stomach turn, the smell of it in the truck with me kept making it worse.  Ofcourse, mom doesnt know so I couldnt very well tell her how sick it was making me……I got to work, went to the bathroom to potty and before I could do that I was kneeling over the toliet gagging.  Begging my body not to puke.  Luckily I didnt.  I got to my desk and warmed up my lunch and had that for breakfast.  Hoping food would calm my stomach, but it didnt.  Im still feeling so friggin sick…..I want to go home.  Ive gagged a few times, but luckily still havent puked, although it might make me feel better.

Last night I couldnt even stomach grocery shopping.  Ive told Stephen that he is going to have to start doing it on his own. Food just makes me sick.  I was leaning over the lunch meat/cheese trying to pick out something I wanted and nearly lost it on all that food.  If I think about a food product for longer than like 5 seconds I start to get sick and my mouth starts to sweat. 

I HATE THIS.

I feel like Im being such a big baby about it all but really, Im totally miserable.  I cant stomach anything and Im starving.

Yesterday Stephen and I were at a mall, both of us had to use the restroom, I went in and waited my turn.  The lady came out and walked to the sink, I walked to that stall, just as I got to the stall I smelt this horrendous smell. It was her…like she hadnt cleaned herself in weeks……like she was on a very bad period and VERY dirty.  Ofcouse with my senses being heightened it makes things worse.  I can smell things ALOT  clearer than I used to.  Anyways, I gagged, tried not to barf and held my breath, hoping the smell would clear out soon.  I put the paper seat cover down and held my nose, but I could still smell it.  I was trying soooo hard not to barf, it was the worst smell.  That poor lady.  I didnt want to be rude, the girl in the stall next to me had finished and her stall was now open, I waited until the stinky lady left the restroom then went into the fresher empty stall.  I didnt want her to see me coming out green as hell from being sick, so I waited until she walked out.  OMG the next stall was so much better, I could actually breathe.  I have never been into a stall that a woman was in before me and had it smell that bad.  Ive smelt a few women before……but NEVER that potent.

On top of that there was a dirty woman at the store where we went grocery shopping.  I was walking…….a good 4 aisles behind her and covering my mouth as I walked.  I found Stephen on an aisle and asked him to come follow her to see if he could smell her……when he finally saw her he begged me not to make him smell her because he knew shed smell bad.

I guess maybe Im rude.  No, people just need to learn to bathe!

I can friggin smell EVERYTHING these days and its driving me NUTS.  Making me so sick.

So, bottom line, Im sick and Im miserable.  Thank goodness this trimester is 2/3rds of the way over…..hopefully it will stop as soon as I hit the 2nd…….that cant come soon enough!

We went to my great aunts sons wedding this weekend.  Was a different kind of wedding, forgot to take my camera.  It was more like a circus….that lasted an hour and a half.  Lots of jokes to be made, and were.  Just crazy stuff.

Stephen and I spent the night at my Nanas Saturday night….left her house about 1 on Sunday and took the scenic route home.  I was feeling sick and I think the riding in the car was making it worse but whatever.  ::Shrugs::

We had a great weekend……..and TMI….some good sex last night…..I think my sex drive is back….whoo hoo.  It totally disappeared for the last 2 months…….I guess Ive just been too sick and tired and my body has just had its mind on other things…….but not last night…..last night was nice.

My husband is so amazing, honestly, if I told you everything……you’d be jealous to your core………wishing we could trade.  But, Id never agree to that……Id have to be a moron to give up what Ive got.  He’s truly UH-MAY-ZING!!  Im so stupidly, head over heels in love with him!!  Wait, that didnt come out the way I meant it to……whatever!

So yes, this is my life….sick and miserable….struggling to get by.

On a good note though, found out Friday that the company is changing insurance providers, to a much better one…..and its supposed to be cheaper too.  Great, just in time……maybe it will be cheap enough that Stephen and I can get it.

Last thing……I want to thank you all for your notes as of late.  I am going to try to find the time to personally write each one back this week, but no promises……I wanted to at least publicly say thanks!!

 

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