Thanks & Goodbye

First of all, thanks for all the wonderful notes on the last entry.  I really appreciate it.

Now that things are finally getting in order, were getting a house, officially started the wedding details, both have good jobs with decent money coming in…….things are being turned upside down.

Tomorrow is my last day here at work.  We’ve been here before. Things have really slowed down, theyve been slowing down since September and just gradually getting slower and slower.  Right now we have $500 outstanding in accounts receivables, which is NOTHING compared to our usual $2000-$4000, so that just goes to show you just how slow things are.  He cant afford to pay me so tomorrow is my last day unless by some miracle things pick up enough that he can afford to pay me.  This time is worse than last time, things just got slow last time so he asked me not to come in for a while, things were quite as slow as they are now.  Im worried.  He said that if I find another job, all I have to do is write the reccomendation letter and he will sign it because "You have been a damn good employee for the last 4 years and its really going to put a kink in things to loose you.  I hate to loose you."  I know I bitch and moan and groan about my job, about wanting a new one, but Id much rather keep this job until I have a new one lined up, that way I have a steady income and no break in it. 

Now who knows whats gonna happen with the house or the wedding, we have too many bills right now to bring in those added expenses.  I really hate this, Im really depressed.  Im going to try to get a loan to pay off the credit cards and other stupid misc bills that we have, that way all we have is the truck notes and insurance so we can handle the house and wedding with Stephens pay.

He MAY be able to get me a job with his company but Im not sure.  I guess for now I will try to contact unemployment again and perhaps start babysitting my nephew, my sister will have to understand I cant do it for free this time.

Life’s a bitch.  It throws you curve balls at the worst time.  Theres always a reason for it though. 

It better be a damn good reason!!!