Im sick of fighting

Stephen is a great guy, he treats me better than I deserve.  I know he doesnt mean to hurt me.  He loves me, I know he does, and he only wants to make me happy.  I am happy, for the most part. 

We had issues again last night, the same issues.  Im just so sick of it all.  I’m pissed off that he broke my trust.  Im trying to work past that, but its just not easy.  I dont want to feel this way, I dont want to act this way.  I just want things to be ok, I just want to be happy.

He mentioned last night that he feels like he is loosing his freedom.  That was far from my intentions.  He needs to understand that he brought this all on himself.  He did it, not me.  Untill he makes it better, its going to stay like this.  I dont want him to feel like he cant be his own person without running everything by me first.  I want him to do as he pleases, talk to who ever he wants, but right now I dont trust him enough to be ok with that.

I told him we would see how this month goes, then decide at the end of it what we should do.  I dont want either of us to be miserable forever just because we are afraid to let each other go.

I want to hate him and give up on this, right now it doesnt seem worth it.  No one said love was easy though right…..

I need to catch up on my faves and my notes.