Back to overthinking

Yay… back to overthinking all of this, Matthew, being clingy, all of it. I feel like a burden sometimes.. idk i feel like its fake because, i was so close to ending it to the point i almost attempted and then he just comes into my life. He makes me happy, and i dont wanna lose that and go back into the stupid depression state i was in.. I was doing so good.. I was feeling myself and feeling good for once, and then my mind got to me.. god I hate my anxiety I just wanted to spend a lil more time with him like usual my excuse for wanting to spend more time with him is him driving me to the elementary, either him driving me there to catch the bus or go to my moms. It’s my route and he knows that. I don’t know anymore… it’s just my anxiety and I know that, but it’s getting to me now..