06/05/1994

9:11 pm

Rascal just had his first "mistake"; So I put him outside on his lead. K & I got a "lead" for the dog so that I don’t have to worry about Rascal running out in the road – he seems to be attracted to the dog next-door, Bandit. Anyway, the lead is attached to the back porch on one side, and the pole that was the clothes line on the other, so all I have to do is clip Rascal to his lead at night, instead of walking him out on his leash. He’s been a great dog since I’ve had him, and this is his first "major" accident. The first night I forgot to let him out, and the second time, I had been gone all day, and I guess he got excited when he saw me, because he let loose. Yesterday, at work, something asked me about the picture we had of Cookie Monster, and when they saw him they wanted him, so he’s in a good home where he’s wanted now. Rascal is a KEEPER.

Right now I’m watching a movie called "Pete’s Dragon". I LOVE this movie, I guess I’m just a kid at heart.

10:19 pm

It’s hard to believe that my mother has finally moved out of the state! I feel bad, bcause I told Dad that I promised her I wouldn’t tell him where she was moving, but then I thought about it, and I realized that it sounded like I was taking and trying to be loyal to my mother, and shut my father out: but to whom do I owe loyalty to? Neither one. I made my peace with my mother, but I don’t owe her ANYTHING. And Dad & I just got together, and we are working on a "relationship" but I don’t him anything, but a chance; same as my mother got. We’re all human, and we all make mistakes. Maret’s were inhumane & cruel, but God will give her her just remains–she things she’s got it licked, but her soul is TAINTED, and no matter how much she denies it, her conscience will always know. Donald got his "reward" by Death. Lord knows that I have made mistakes, and someday I will have to make my amends & pay my dues, but all I can do is TRY HARDER AND ANEW.

Aaron has got 2 of his front teeth started, but his gums aren’t swollen or red, and he is being a real little "trooper", that’s my boy! We bought Luv diapers again, and his rash went completely away.