05/23/1994

9:16 pm

I’ve put some work into the landscaping around the front of the trailor this late afternoon! Kevin & I got a new shovel for him, because he broke his other one (in an unfortunate accident). and I got a trowel, and a pair of gloves, cute little buggers, with rosebuds, and gummy knobs. when I got home, I did a second coat of paint on the porch, and then I started "digging up sod" – I got almost all of the front done before it got really dark (well, dark enough to not see what I was doing clearly). But I really enjoyed myself: believe it or not, I used that hatchet for all I was worth, and I guess it was what you would call a "stress reliever".

May 24, 1994

somewhere between 9:30 and 10:30

I’ve got alot of little somethings on my mind; I’m gonna try to call Trudy tomorrow, and have a chat. I’m gonna tell Trudy I would like to go back to seeing her – 2x’s a month. I guess you could appropriately say that I started to "feel" this way the day after I saw Bambi at Walmart’s. I never even set eyes on my mother, and she snapped something inside of me – so I am still "letting" her bother me. So, I am convinced that I am ready to engage in that "anger work" that Trudy once spoke about. I feel that I must have some hostility left towards Maret, and I’m ready and willing to LET IT GO.

About my dog, (or my future dog) Danny’s grandmother raises peek-a-poo’s, and her dog is expecting a litter in 6 or 7 weeks, and Danny is going to give me a ride up to his grandmother’s house, so I can pick the puppy I want sort of "reserve" it, and I already know I want a white or creme, female. She charges $150. So I have a little over 3 months to save the money up.