three jaded drumsticks

Okay, so probably wondering about the title? Fear not, it means nothing!

My oldest and I got into an argument as soon as the kids got home from school. I felt so hopeless about ever "reaching" either of my kids, I wanted to call hubby up and tell him that I was leaving home. But I didn’t. I stayed.

Oldest was outside walking Bridgette, and when I said something to him, he turned to face me, and his face was all red, and his eyes were filled with tears.

I gave him a Looooooooooooooooooonng-ass hug, and he held on right back. Told him that I was here if he needed to talk. Apologized for being such a control-freak/bitch sometimes.

He told me some things, that I can’t write about, because he asked me to keep these things between us, but none of the things are bad, they are just typical teenage stuff…..and he also told me that he wouldn’t be where he was if he didn’t have me.

Imagine.

He said that watching me deal with my problems, shows him how to deal with his. Just made me feel good, I don’t believe that I am a great mother…..but I must be doing something right.

We also had a discussion about his getting his license. *sigh* He will be 17 when he starts his Senior year next fall, and he has been told that he can take driver’s ed through his school system for free.

Hubby and I have held off on making this decision, because A IS adhd, really lacks common sense, is very impulsive, and not very aware of his surroundings. But he is slowly improving. Today was the first day that I told him that he was a lot closer to the goal than he was even at the beginning of the year.

I’m worried to death that he is going to kill or be killed in an automobile. But, I think he’s starting to need the independence that comes with having your own ride. I guess this is something that all 3 of us will sit down and discuss sometime this summer.

The kids and I just had a little snack. Poor Mom’s peanut butter cups. Ever have one of those times when you REALLY needed to get something sweet into your mouth? That was me tonight.

Guess I will finally surrender, and get my huge rear into bed to snuggle with hubby.

Night everybody!!

~kat