7-18-93

7-18-93

I’m gonna start keeping this journal because I like the design, and I have alot of things & thoughts about the baby on my mind. "The Baby", my baby, the thought is still mostly UNREAL to me, I think that it is to Kevin too. He’s never been a "daddy" just like I’ve never been a "mommy", and I just Thank God that it’s Kevin I’m going through this "parenting" thing with, or else I think that I would probably go insane. There’s so many changes and feelings involved in carrying this child, and I’m glad I don’t have to go through any of this myself. Lately I have felt like one solid lump of LARD! When I sit down, my belly hangs in my lap, and my boobs hang down to my belly, and I look like an outline of an S. (A backwards one in any case.) The scale says that I have gained 15 pounds, and I feel a little heavier, but I guess from other people’s opinions I’m a bit small for 7 months – so maybe Aaron will be a WEE baby. Maybe he’s just not hit his growth potential yet. Maybe. And another problem that has been plaguing me is *Backaches* before they were just "achy", but this morning my back & shoulders hurt so much that I wanted to cry. Kevin gave me 2 tylenol, and 1/2 hour later I felt a whole lot better. I hope that tonight my back isn’t as painful. If I have backaches like this at 7 months, I can only imagine what the next few months will be like! Tomorrow I am actually 28 weeks pregnant, (7 months) but I actually have 3 months left until my due date. The past few months have flown by quickly, but it seems to be going slow. I just wish that my son would be born, and come meet his mommy + daddy. I guess I’m pretty lucky in my pregnancy though. Yes, I did spend the first few (3 or 4) months sick, and I am fat & frumpy, and I have backaches, but other than that I’m okay, physically. And I’m not all that emotional, unexplained tears every now + then, but that’s all.