May 19, 1993

12:53 pm

I haven’t kept you up to date – "jr." is "moving" quite regularly now, I feel the movements several times during the day, but Kevin has only felt movement once. I guess it’s too faint for him to really feel yet. It’s really awesome though, that’s MY child coming to life inside of me! I’m starting to have real feelings and love for this little person – I can’t wait to meet him or her. Next week is my sonogram – I’m pretty excited about that too! I can’t wait to see a picture of Kevin and my baby. Today is 19 weeks – only 21 weeks left!

Do you know how much my life has changed since I began this journal? When I started writing this, I was still married to Victor, and I was so unsure and insecure in my relationship with Kevin, and I wanted a baby SO bad! Now I am married to my sweetie, and having his baby! And asshole is a FADING memory. So much change.