April 2, 1993

Well, I got my hair cut today (I know "what’s new," right?) IT’S SHORT! (VERY!) I wasn’t too impressed at first, I’m usually not, but, after I got home I brushed it, and then washed it (I know, it’s a little backwards.) Aside from a pesky little "cow lick", it’s okay. I guess you could say that I got "exactly" what I asked for. I’m happy I finally got it done, but earlier this week I asked Vicky to go to Newport to get my hair cut, so, I’m afraid that she’s gonna be mad. I’ll just say that the roads were icy and Kevin didn’t want ME to drive. We’re going over Monday, so I’ll tell her then. She shouldn’t be TOO mad, right?

April 6, 1993

I’m writing with my new pen. On Monday K. and I went to the coast, and we stopped in Ellsworth at "Newberries", and I spent $1 for a package of my favorite pens, and $1 on a bib for the baby that says "I <3 Daddy". I’ve wanted a bib or shirt that had "Daddy" on it. We had a really good trip, and I hope the summer is full of them! Today I went to visit a few people and it was okay, but I ran into Lori-Bitch and it really rattled me. Baby A. is 13 weeks "young". 5 months and 3 weeks left.

April 9, 1993

11:26 am

Well, today I feel like SHIT! I have for a couple of days now, really, but today it just seems worse! I’d go visit someone, but for some reason I feel really self-concious about my appearance. My face is all broke out, and my face is pale, so the zits stick out and I really DESPISE this fucking hair-cut! I have just hit a slump I guess, I feel really low about myself and my appearance. I know it, get over it Amy! I’m getting myself ready for a bath, I have an hour before my "Soaps" come on, and maybe a bath will relax me. (Hopefully.)

12:07 pm

Well, I took my bath, for a whole 5-6 minutes, the heat was incredible, so I got out, and I didn’t get a chance to sit down and "recoup" before I had to barf – I guess it wouldn’t have been so bad if I hadn’t just taken 2 tylenol. I was SO shaken, that I called K., and he came and held me, and I cried my eyes out! I love him, how many other husbands would set on a pile of dirty clothes in a little bathroom and hold thier naked wife while she cried on his shoulder with "wretched" breath? What a sweet man. He’s in bed now, he really needs to sleep, so, even though I would love to spend a few hours with him, I’m gonna get him get his rest. On Sunday Kevin’s father invited us over for dinner (it’s Easter) he’s gonna make a boiled dinner. Mmmmm…. I know I’m rambling on, but I just have a need to TALK. I started a cross-stitch quilt for "junior" it’s gonna take me FOREVER! It’s a diversion anyway. I’m still pretty ragged about my hair – but hopefully by summer (2 months), I should have a little growth. (At least by the time the baby is born I won’t look like the "daddy" instead of the "mommy". Oh god, I’M GONNA BE A MOTHER!