April 9, 1992

10:27 pm

Feelings. Things are never how I want them to be! My divorce is not progressing as planned. I was already to file, and I was looking for another month to end it all. Begin a new life – fresh. I was "10" days late (yea, only 10 days late), so I had to buy all the papers again, and re-serve Victor. So I called him and explained the "hold up". He said he would sign the papers all over again, and he would keep the allotment order in. (Yes, I got my allotment this month.) Anyway, I’m gonna save the next 3 allotment cheques for a car. $900 by summer (July.) I should the Escort that  I want (or Chevette or T1000.) Guess what Kevin got me for Easter? A leather jacket! Oof! I feel so happy, he said he would get it, and he did. He always keeps his word to me. He wants me to trust him, but should I? Would I only get my heart broken again? How do I trust? How?

I got a bunny. His (her) name is Crystal–but I call him(her) "Bunnie" or "Mr. Bunnie". The woman who sold him to me at the pet store told me that he could be house-trained, and I want to train him soo bad, but Kevin says there’s only a 50/50 chance that bunnie will take to the training. I want to let him loose around the room, and eventually around my home (when I have one.) But he’s not being very cooperative. Kevin and I take him on trips and shit, so I’d like to get him trained. 3 days and counting, fingers crossed.