I’m feeling like grrrr
So this is how I’m feeling right now. Yesterday morning S decided he wanted to talk about the “elephant” in the room….that is us not having sex for the past 10 days. I told him we can talk about it. Well instead of waiting for me to get off work, he decides to text me after dropping me off. He forwards a text he sent me a month ago about him slowly shutting down and to not be surprised if we stop having sex soon. This is followed by how he sent this as a reminder that we have a very big problem and that he’s about to say screw the whole relationship. Then texts asking “am I supposed to get sex elsewhere”. I was not gonna subject myself to stress at work, so I ignored him. Y’all know he acted as if that wasn’t a thing when he picked me up from work. Like totally different person. The last few times he’s done these text arguments, he acts sane after I’ve ignored his attempts. It’s just so damn crazy how he’ll go from one extreme to the next. It’s frustrating and I can’t stand him. So since he’s neglected to have this talk, we will be doing that when I’m off work tomorrow. I am tired of living in fear of him being a bigger ass when I break it off. I was only hesitant because I’m afraid to be hurt by his actions, even though I’m hurting anyway. It’s just a crazy vicious cycle. I just wanna be done with him and move. I gotta do something and fast. I can’t live in this house anymore. Today and yesterday I had homework due and I needed my mind clear. I’ll be free to talk tomorrow after work. My God I pray I can move out soon. I can’t take another man like him, a freaking narcissist. I’d rather be single for the rest of my life than to live like this anymore. It’s killing me.
Oof! I hope you get to move soon, sounds intense!
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