Trying Again

It has been 9 years since I have opened this diary in an serious attempt to put down what is going on in life. Other than a few entries in 2011 and 2012 I had abandoned the diary because I felt I was only writing about sad things
Since my previous entries are so long ago, I have to do a re-cap on where we are today.

Last I wrote about what was happening in my life was when I was employed by Verizon Wireless in 2012. Well that job lasted until July of 2013 when, after trying to assist a drunk customer with a billing issue, and asking my manager for an assist, that same manager plugged in a headset and plopped his fat butt into a chair, crossed his arms and just sat there…
After another few minutes of me noisily drowning and NO help, I asked the customer to please hold, removed my headset, looked my boss in the eye and said “I quit, you help them…” grabbed my backpack and walked out.

The next 2 1/2 years were bad, at one point I was going to give my truck to my daughter *E* and go on the road as a wanderer, I had spent so many years of my early adult life on the streets, I was sure I could do it again. Better I thought, on my own, than a huge burden to my little girl.
Fortunately I did have an interview with ARK. Blue Cross to work in their Data Center. I finally have a great job that pays very well.
I still have huge struggles as I am trying to have some kind of retirement due to my late start.
*E* attempted to join the military (Navy, like me) after High School but did not make it through boot due to anxiety issues and she was sent back home.
I was so worried about her as it was a MAJOR blow to her self esteem and confidence. At one point she told me she was seriously contemplating suicide.
Thank God she was able to go to school to be a pet groomer. Her boyfriend moved to ARK in 2018 to attend college and he helped her a lot. They moved to Florida in 2019 and *E* is now attending college studying program coding and security.
When the COVID19 Pandemic started, it allowed something I never thought would be possible, it opened up communication with my high school sweetheart/ex wife. *Clu*
I will write more about this in the future, no doubt about that.