04/23/2013

i feel so fucking out of place lately. i dont fit.

i cant get over some people and their asshole behaviours. no. absolutely not. i could but i wont. i hate when people are absolute dicks towards people who have done absolutely nothing wrong by them. 

if i can spare anything when someone else needs it i give not expecting anything in return. and i usually dont. thats fine, i’m happy to help

but on the rare occasions that they do i feel touched. you know? i’m just so fucking grateful that someone had thought of me. that someone actually cares.

rare. VERY rare.

and then there are those who i give and give and give, and then they completely shit on me, and then ask for more. 

no.

completely no.

but today, i am absolutely upset. no idea why. i just am. i’ve been crying and yelling and just.. fuck. i dont want to go into this at all.

i just dont know. i DONT. and i hate people saying BUT YOU MUST KNOW WHY YOU ARE CRYING.

I FUCKING DONT. I JUST DONT. KNOW. I CRY COS I FUCKING DO.