so.. last night was shit.

 friend cancelled.

felt really really sad.

felt really really angry.

felt happy.

laughed.

felt angry

was furious.

cried hysterically about not being able to oped a bottle of coke…

yes.. i cried over soda.

i also cried about how my local friends dont give a shit. i made two doctors appointments. one to see this dickweed for blood test results which is a never ending battle. because i make appointments via the clinics webpage. the drop menu that has the days preferred for appointments only show monday to saturday. the first time i tried making an appointment to see said dickweed i got an email back "sorry, dr dickweed only works on sundays" 

the fuck? okay.. something similar has happened before with my usual doctor. i wanted an appointment on a day he wasnt there, so they made an appointment for the next day he was there.. whyyyyyyyyyy cant they possibly do that with dr dickweed???? fucks sake.

i made the other appointment with my regular doctor. because i am seriously loosing my shit. i’m mood swinging like crazy (see above) crying over stupid things and just generally wanting to die. so not good…

have i mentioned that weird face pain is still going? yeah its super fantastic.