Kelly’s birthday

Tomorrow is Kelly’s 48th birthday.  This will be the 3rd birthday of her’s that we’ve celebrated since her diagnosis.  We’re now 25 months out and she’s doing well enough to stay off chemo for now.  To think that her life expectancy at diagnosis was something like 18 months…..she’s done amazingly well.

It should be a good day for her tomorrow…..church in the a.m. followed by a celebratory Sunday dinner with our daughter, son-in-law, and grand daughter at a nice little place not too far away.  Then it’s back to our place to continue visiting with the kids, including our son and girl friend who are coming in the afternoon.

Dear diary….if you know the secret to us being able to go for a whole day without being reminded about Kelly’s condition, will you let us know?   I wrote once before that this disease demands patience.  We are trying to live the philosophy…."don’t let the disease take the good days away from you", but it’s so hard.  This disease impacts so many different aspects of our lives….every aspect…it is truly impossible to put into words.  The psychological impact can easily manifest itself in depression, anger, and many other emotions.  The feeling of impending doom….the constant threat of recurrence makes it all too easy to fall into thoughts of darkness and pain.  

We do our best to live our faith, but I must admit Kelly is stronger than I in that regard.  Perhaps its because she is the one who is afflicted and not I.

My hope and prayer continues to be for God to heal her on this side of eternity…….all the while trying as best I can to give thanks daily for the victories and blessings we already have been given.

Lets hope that tomorrow’s birthday celebration is a good and happy day for her and for us all.  And that it is just the next one of many more to follow!

Happy birthday Kelly.  I love you with all my heart!