Fork in the Road.

Right now I am at a stand still while I try to thoughtfully plan my next steps.

Work:

Right now I was just informed that one of the ladies I was working with who is 2 levels higher than me was leaving the task, and that I would be assuming her responsibilites in addition to all the ones I currently have.  Hmm yeh great.  Of course there are the good things and the bad things.  Good being a great promtion, and a lot and managerial experience for me.  BUT I wouldnt get that unless I was to stay here.  By staying I mean not moving to Chicago, which wasnt even a thought for me of not moving until he informed me, that he might move back here.  Which thinking now would be great for me.  I could get a great promotion and actually stay at a job I love.  But its not all about me of course.  So I let that rest for now.  He told me to just act as if I am staying there/here for now, because everything with him is uncertain (job/location).  So for now I will assume the position of this lady, and work my butt off and hopefully in the end all my hardwork will pay off– one way or another.

Relationship/Move:

Now that the seed has been planted of the possible move back here.  I cant stop thinking about how things would be.  So much better, being able to save, stay with my job, and best of all no extreme cold winters.  It would also give us a chance to grow with each other without family around…just us doing things w/o the influence and interference of others (that sounds bad/selfish but I dont mean it to be).  I would rather start out young, alone- but together if you know what I mean.  I dont think I would want to live together, I’ve never been a fan of living together unless you are married, so I would be able to stay here, and continue to save and pay off debts.

Prayer:

Lord I just pray that you will handle this situation, I put it in your hands.  Give me peace and patience. I know that it will work out the best way, because you already know.

 

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January 11, 2006

listen, I’m not sure what type of job u have, but I wouldn’t jump till u discuss pay n notice to all staff bout u’r power in thebussiness place. I got walked all over by assumptions n I hate to c otherz fall pray to it as well

January 12, 2006

things will fall into place.