Love Sick.

Its already bad that I miss you when you are a phone call, and twenty minutes away. It just makes me fear what is to come in the next five weeks when you will be leaving me. Its crazy how you just being in the same room as me can make a difference. I try not to be selfish, because I know that you need to study and that school is your first priority. But its hard, I hate sharing your time. But Im still understanding, understanding with a smile and support.

Its moments like this that I realize that I don’t want to be without you. You have become a huge part of me and my life…you pretty much are my life right now. And I am very much okay with that, and that surprises me. In a good way.

Right now I know but keep suppressing for fear that it may be too soon, but I am falling, and have fallen in love with you, and I knew it when I made the decision that I wanted to be with you. Its crazy, I thought I knew love from past relationships (if you even want to call one that) but this is different. Its mutual, honest, easy, free, understanding, nurturing, encouraging, comforting. I thank God for you everyday, because you are honestly what I have been waiting for and praying for my entire life, and I hope that you and I will be able to make it through the difficult period we are about to enter this summer. I was told by a friend and I keep telling myself to just take each day as it comes, so that is what I am going to do.

Because I know in my heart that this isn’t some little trivial relationship, this is something that I want to last forever.