Making It Easy…

Thank you for making it easy for me to get over this, by this I mean you.

I thought to myself, who wouldn’t call the one you care about on a day like Valentines Day.  Its easy, when you care you show it, hmm maybe it’s the same in the reverse.  When you don’t care, you show that as well.  And clearly that is you.  I wasn’t going to call, but instead of being spiteful I broke down and decided to send a text.  “Happy Valentine’s Day Love Serenity”.  No call no response NOTHING.  The signs have been there, but in my many attempts to ignore them, I finally see them….CLEAR as CRYSTAL. I asked to come see you, YOU DON’T HAVE TIME.  Your friends ask to see you, YOU SAY WHEN?.  I ask you to come and visit, YOU SAY I DON’T HAVE THE MONEY.  Your friends don’t ask,  and YOU JUST HOP ON THE NEXT PLANE.  I would have to be stupid to continue to carry on this way when I have several guys willing to give their all to make me happy.  

Especially one, once referred to as the forbidden one, who shows me more and more everyday what I need and want in a man.  Someone who makes me feel wanted and needed, shows me that I am the only one he wants in so many ways.  He treats me like I am the only woman in the world.  Valentines Day…I cant remember the last time I felt like that…maybe high school…but the thoughtful attempt of sending roses to me at work (mind you-having to research and find my work address) which says a lot, then surprising me and taking me to this wonderful restaurant…B.Smith’s very good :-).

Anyway, I know how I want to be treated and I am being treated that way right now…not by you, but by someone else.  But it is way too soon for me to be making any decisions on whether or not I will be having a boyfriend soon, since there are still a lot of things that I don’t know about with him 🙂 But yeh.

I cant deny that I love you, but I am no longer in love with you, ha kinda hard being IN love alone.  So yeh Im moving on, slowly, but still moving on.  It’s a shame things have to be this way, me giving my all, you just taking, and offering a lame excuse here and there.  You live and you learn…maybe this is just a passing phase either way its something I am feeling.  You are in your own little wild world hence your away message “I’m in vegas, pumpin’ hard, tryna get in some DIRT- At the slot machine with go go dancers lifting they SKIRTS. In and out, real quick then it’s back for CLASS-And then I’m gone again to Karolina feelin’ on ASS. Gettin SMASHED, high KLASS, real sexy and GROWN- Drinking PATRON, touchin pum, and then i send it back ON. Send it back HOME to its man where it rightfully STAYS- And poof I’m gone Kaiser SOSA, Iota Xi WAY”

Enjoy!