Growing Up

So I am doing it. I finally signed the papers and it is a done deal. I am officially an adult. I will be living on my own and paying my own bills. Who would have thought? Its times like I have been having that make you realize that you cant depend on anyone. You can only trust yourself, because you cant be disappointed that way.

I havent told HER the news yet. But at this point do I even care? She hasnt been around. Using that guy she sometimes refers to as her boyfriend to get away, and I guess not to deal with me. Do I care? Maybe a little. I hate that feeling of have animosity towards someone you live with and are so close with. But I almost feel like she enjoys it. Like she would much rather have some sort of friction there…its weird I see it in most of her relationships. Sad but true. I dont know maybe its best that her and I wont be living together. Everything does happen for a reason. I dont know what is going on with her, but Im not going to press the issue anymore either. Im not a mind reader and I have problems of my own as well.

I have always been here for you to talk to or what have you. But you have been weird, its like when someone is hiding things and as someone gets closer to them, they begin to see these things. I know that there are a lot of things bothering you and you try to conceal them all, but the shade you are using just isnt dark enough to hide it. You need to realize that I am not going to think any less of you. You cant hide behind people your entire life, nor can you continue to use people. You have a lot of maturing to do, and its sad that the two people who are the closest to you are the ones holding you back from so much.

This is going to be a huge learning experience for me. There is so much I dont know, but at the same time I am ready to learn. Because if I dont learn now, when will I? So yeh moving July 24th to Alexandria…