Yeah, so what?

Okay, yeah, the last two posts were pretty meaningless but fuck you, so what, it’s my diary – leave me alone.

Well, don’t leave me alone … that’d kind of defeat the purpose of having an open diary.  Just, you know – stop being so judgy.

I, actually, feel like I don’t know what to say.  I’ve been wanting to come back here because I’ve always felt free to just talk here and say anything I wanted.  So far as I’m aware, none of my real-life friends follow me here anymore, and have not for a long time, so I don’t have to worry about it getting back to them.

Not that I say a lot that I’d have to fear, in that regard, but knowing the people judging me aren’t the people I see all the time is helpful.

Yet, now that I’m here, I find that I don’t know what to say.  Or, maybe the truth is, I have a bunch to say and don’t know how to say it all or in what order or if I have the energy to type it all out.

I need a place to type it out, though, because I lack a release, a place to just throw my thoughts out into the social void without fear of being attacked, as you would on Twitter or Facebook, but knowing that someone, somewhere, sometimes, is listening.  It helps a little … my dirty little note in a bottle.

I guess we’ll see where it goes.

 

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