Falling asleep next to the man I love ….

I am numb … I refuse to feel anymore … Whats the sense … to feel is only allowing yourself to be hurt …

I dont understand how things can change from one evening to one morning …
secretly takes my cell phone …
is upset with me because why ? what did I do besides love him completely and want to build a eternal life with him and only him…
Then to leave without a goodbye … all I did was fall a sleep next to the man I love and I woke next to someone else …

To be accused wrongly … how do you dissolve the doubt ???

I thought we had everything behind us … I thought this was a new start … this relationship is a joke … but this joke is not funny … it hurts deeply …