A New Year 2006

This was suppose to be a wonderful new year …

I lost my best friend … my soul mate … my lover …

Im so sad and I miss him.  I miss his company … I miss his smile and the beautiful color of his eyes.

I miss hearing his handsome deep voice. . . I miss doing things with him … I miss him coming home to me after work. I miss him holding me in his arms.

I wonder if this is what he had wanted all along … what kind of person would he be if this was all a game … I refuse to believe all he said was a lie … it felt so real..  .. ..

I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu ERIK!!!!