This is too painful

I want to fight .. I want to hold on but then I think what what are you trying to hold on to ??? Its not real, he is pretending, I am the toy, I have been used …. it all hurts so much ! I feel foolish and so deeply hurt.  How can someone look into your eyes and tell you how much they love you… you are the one they want to spend the rest of their life with…there is no other ……………………. I can cry my heart out and nobody would hear …………. I dont understand…………. it all seemed so real, so right, so forever … why make someone feel this way only to deceive them?

You wonder why Im so sad … I gave you my heart to keep it safe … we made a commitment to eachother … but I guess it was only a conditional one … when you feel me slipping you start looking … and Im only slipping because you are looking.  You are losing me … my heart is wilting … my heart cant sustain the hurt.  We could have been everything to eachother … we could have had everything …

Are they all like this ?  Is there any honest true souls left?  Is this just a game???