A very very long survey

Maybe it wasn’t that long. Maybe it was just thought-provoking so it took me long. Anyway, here it is.

Survey stolen from @soldis

What do you think about most?
The bar exam. Getting a job. Getting a house. Having a kid. If I can accomplish all of things or if I’ll die from covid first. Or if one of my family members will.

What does your latest text message from someone else say?
“Awesome, me too. Those look so cute”

What do you wear to bed?
My husband’s T-shirts and socks hahaha.

Ever had a poem or song written about you?
So in high school, this one guy started to ask me out and then he chickened out… And then he sang a song in front of the entire school about how he tried but failed to ask out some girl. I really thought it was me at the time but it could’ve been someone else for sure. Other than that, I write poems and my husband changes the lyrics to songs to make them about me.

When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Well, while I was thinking about this question I thought, maybe if  I play an air guitar right now it’ll help me remember the last time I played it. It didn’t, but I guess now is the last time I played one.

Do you have any strange phobias?
Frogs. But if you wanna get more serious it’s that this entire life is a simulation and its different everyday but I’m just implanted with memories to make me think it’s real. Or even more serious, that this is all for nothing and I wasted my life regretting the past and waiting for the future.

What’s your religion?
I believe an omniscient, omnipotent, omni-benevolent God would not punish people for not believing in Him.
But yes, I believe in a God. I do not believe in a Hell. And I believe it doesn’t matter whether or not I believe in God. That’s about as clear as I can make my religious beliefs.

If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Smoking. Or taking walks. I’ve been taking a lot of walks lately.

Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Neither? I suck at taking pictures and I usually hate how I look in pictures, but as I get older I like how i look in past pictures, so I guess in front of? But I don’t prefer it until the pictures become memories. Wow, I’m a really weird person.

What was the last lie you told?
Sat here for 5 minutes trying to remember. I truly cannot remember. Probably someone calling me on a study day when I’m on a study break and me telling me them I’m studying even though I’m on a study break.

Do you believe in karma?
I don’t think so. To quote Hamilton (actually Burr, but from Hamilton), “life doesn’t discriminate between the sinners and the saints it just takes and it takes and it takes and it takes.”

What does your username mean?
It’s my goal for using OD. Allowing myself to be vulnerable.

What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
Lack of self-confidence in everything; ambition.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Zac Efron.

Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
No, I’ve actually always wanted to. We had a private hut tub for our honeymoon and totally skinny dipped in that, but it was private, so i don’t think it counts.

How do you vent your anger?
I scream. And I’m working on being better about screaming. But it’s hard.

Do you have a collection of anything?
books.

Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Depends on the person. If its to people I talk to often, then on the phone. If it’s my long distance friends, then videochatting.

Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
I’m happy with the person I’m becominggggg. But I’m still struggling to forgive the person that I used to be.

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
The like holographic notebook things (or folders) If you scratch on them. I fucking hate that sound. I’m getting goosebumps just thinking about it. I love music. I love hearing my husband sing to me.

Do you believe in ghosts? What about aliens?
I believe in both, although I believe in aliens more than I believe in ghosts and i think that’s weird

Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first?
MBE lecture handouts book (one of my many bar exam books)

Smell the air. What do you smell?
My nose is a little stuffy right now because it rained and my allergies are acting up, so nothing.

What’s the weather like right now?
If it’s under 80, it’s too cold for me. Update: just checked the weather. It’s wayyyy under 80.

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
No. I forgive way too easily.

What is your astrological sign?
Capricorn.

Do you save money or spend it?
I’m really good at saving.

What’s the last thing you purchased?
Food. I’ve been too lazy to cook and I need to grocery shopping.

Are you in a relationship?
I am happily married.

How many relationships have you had?
Actual relationships: 2.
If I include serious dating with people I thought I was in a relationship with, it would 6. My dating history is short yet long and oh so complicated. But it’s all good now.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No, but when I was young I always wanted to so I would do tongue exercises hahaha

Where were you yesterday?
homehomehome all day studying

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
A pink hand sanitizer bottles, pink headphones.

Are you wearing socks right now?
Yeah those stupid no-show ones. I hate them but I wear them a lot because my shoes need no-show socks.

What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
No fucking clue. Why would you even want a secret weapon? Wouldn’t you just want someone to like you for who you are? Okay but realistically if I had to give someone advice for this I’d say… Ask them lots of questions about themself. People love answering questions about themselves and studies have found that they think the conversation went better when they answered questions. Second, have a really interesting piece of information about yourself but don’t give it all away. Something like “I actually almost got bit by a shark in a beach in the Caribbean” (obviously think of a real story, don’t make one up), but then leave it at that and ask them another question about them. It’ll keep them intrigued. Also idk if any of this works I met my husband in high school lmao.

Where is your best friend?
In her home, hiding from the pandemic.

What were you doing last night at 12AM?
Uhhh I think i was watching the night stalker.

Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
Honest, caring, understanding, not very needy. Knows how to party. Yeah I think so.

What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
I’ve Just Seen a Face.

What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Idk. Ask me this in 10 years. I’m currently making important decisions and I don’t know which one will be the best.

Favorite color?
Pink. I’m a cliche sometimes and I love it.

What is your current desktop picture?
Awwww it’s a wedding picture of me and Husband. He’s kissing me on the forehead. Our wedding pictures rotate for my wallpaper. Wait, I don’t have a desktop. Hopefully my mac background is what you’re asking about.

What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
What hurt you the most?

You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere.
A warm island on a beach with my husband.

Do you have any relatives in jail?
None that I know of.

What will you do after this?
This took wayyyy too long. It’s almost 3am. I’m still not tired but I’m gonna try to sleep.