You’re Gonna Hate Me

No, not because I am a bad horrible mean person, but merely because I have to put off updating once again.

But, I will tell you that I am typing from a new computer- one of the stupidest impulse shopping experiences I have ever had…

Ok, I lied. I’ll update a little now. Not following my storyboard from last entry, but.. updates nonetheless.

– Valentine’s Day: Went out, got drunk, asked the hottest man I work with if he wanted to make out (after I got home, of course… texted him- such a loser, am I.) Next day, he told me it was cool… no hard feelings. Hungover… bad hangover… but, had fun.

Next day, I hung out with my friends Jenna and Michael. They kinda hit it off. It was fun, we ate, laughed, had good times. Thought they were gonna hook up… turns out, we all do better as friends. Friends first, I always say.

Um… Ok, let’s get to what has been the central theme of my diary for some time: Mike Minor. Nothing new has happened, except that he leaves at the end of March. Although I am saddened, one of my friends has come up with a theory she derived from Oprah: "You two will keep contact, from a distance. You’ll meet someone, he’ll meet someone. One of you will get their heart broken, cry to the other, where that other will come running across the states to hold and comfort you and at the point, you will know you two were meant to be together. TA DA!" Nice theory.. it’ll never happen. But, it’s nice to think it might.

Anywho.. I’ve been the same around him- just a friend. Last Saturday night, we worked side by side together, as we always do. He told me that last week, he missed me not being in the section next to him… um… missed me? We banter, chat, it’s fun. He missed the talking. The night before we had thrown a party, and on the posted bulletin in the back, someone had wrote, "Also A Good Bye Party for Mike Minor!" So, I was sure he would show…

Never did. I wasn’t upset, but it was nice to have all my friends tell me that they think he is just too shy to ask me out, and he knows he is leaving, and doesn’t wanna get attatched… all total LIES, but sometimes, you need to hear lies.  When he came into work the next day, he told me his friend surprised him from out of town. He would have brought him with, but he said that he’s better looking than him. I had to hold my tongue to not blurt out otherwise. I asked him to come over that night, but plans fell through and I was exhausted anyway… blah blah blah. To the good stuff…

I have been going out a lot lately. Don’t know why, just have. Last night I went out with some of the Champp’s crew, and a girl Sara we work with… her father passed away on Sunday. Brain cancer… knew it was coming, sad nonetheless. So, we hung out, and I stayed the sober friend and drove everyone home. I got home at 4:30, had to work the next day. Did not care what I looked like. Wore my glasses, barely any make up… I didn’t need to be cute, Mike Minor wasn’t working.

I am finishing up my side work, rolling silverware, when Mike Minor walks in. He stood next to me and started talking with me. I tried to talk back, but I lost most of my voice (Who knows why? It’s my birthday curse- I’m ALWAYS sick) His comment, "You lost your voice? I think I saw it under that table over there." So corny, I love it. ANYWHO: he said he stopped in because he had to go to a mandatory meeting at 2, and didn’t want to be the only one there so early. I told him I would see him tomorrow as I grabbed my coat and went to cash out.

Steph comes up to me: "He totally came in just to see you." "BULLSHIT- he didn’t want to go to class yet!" "Yeah… but he didn’t talk to anybody else- walked right up to you and right up to you ONLY." "Well, so what? He’s still in there." As I say this, he leaves the building, as we are walking to our cars… I still refuse to believe he came just to talk to me. Not possible… I won’t believe it. And, if I had a voice… I would totally ask him when we were going to see that next movie together. Until I can talk though, I must take a vow of silence…

Yeah… stupid lil stories that make up my life. So much more happened, I know it did. But, I’ve been so freaking busy, I can’t even cocentrate. And… did I mention I HATE being sick?!? EVERY YEAR! ARGH!

Ok, it’s been fun playing on the new computer, but I think I shall hit the hay. Goodnight everyone, and I’ll be commenting soon, I swear it 🙂