Relapse

Yes… sad, but true… I am smoking again. Not half as bad as a was before though- a pack lasts me three to four times as long, and most of the smoking is merely done whilst out with friends for drinks, or at work when I am bored off my patootie. I TRIED! And I succeeded. I proved to myself that if I wanted to quit, I could… but it’s truly hard to give something up when you don’t want to. I know I will quit for good someday… just not now. (Don’t hate me!)

Anywho… I am done with school for two weeks, hoorah! I should be doing homework, or working on projects. Instead, I have been working as much as possible, and have been obsessed with Mario Party 6- way too much fun. Tomorrow is Christmas shopping day with Katie. Christmas is going to be meager this year. My dad said he is only giving gift certificates, and my mom has barely any money, but I don’t mind. We are going to make this about Johnny, J.T., my adorable nephew this year. He talks NONSTOP, and it’s adorable to here a two year old tell you, “I love hokey fish!” when he has no idea what it means exactly.

What else… oh… Mike Minor. I have been trying SO hard not to crush on him. But, things change. There was a Christmas party last Friday, a girl from work threw it. He showed up around 11. At this point, I was fairly tipsy. But, there were a bunch of us sitting on the couch playing “Scene it” and I had a open seat next to me. “Can I sit here?” he asked… I blushed and said yes. We chatted, and I tried my best to flirt. I gave him a hug after the hostess threw us out (lots o’ drama, she had a hissy fit) So, a bunch of us went to the Fox and Hound to continue our drinking fest.

We were all drinking, chatting, and having fun. I turned in my seat to see a friend I haven’t seen in ages… Bob. I ran over to him, hugged him, and we chatted a bit. He bought me a drink and then came over by my friends to chat. The rest of the night was a semi blur. I came home, went to bed, and went to work the next night, where… I ran into Bob again. He said he and his friends wanted some food before going out. He told me to call him later to tell him what I was doing. I failed to do so. The next night, while I was swamped at work, my phone beeped that I had a missed message… from… guess who? Bob. He wanted to know what I was up to. It was his birthday, and he wanted to go out for a drink. I was working, so he stopped in and had one with our friends Mindy and Mandy. It was fun, but… odd…

I have always had a wee bit of a crush on Bob, back like 5 years ago, when he used to have the bowl hair cut, plastered down with gel to the sides of his head, his face not completely clear of acne, and a voice that still cracked when he was nervous. Now, he has been working out, the acne has cleared, and his voice is so distinctive you can’t help but want to listen. I was startled and surprised. I may see where this goes… but, back to the main point… Mike Minor.

I worked with him on Sunday night. Every time I work with him, there is no reason for me to stand next to him and talk- his section is usually on the other side of the restaurant. But, it seemed this night, he was finding me. I was standing by my section, doing the crossword puzzle, and he walked over, stood over my shoulder and tried to help me with clues. Then, whenever I went to the bar, he was right there, chatting with me. At one point, I was walking up to my section, when I had to come to a stop to let a guest walk by. I started walking again only after Mike Minor had touched the small of my back to push me on. I could barely keep from smiling. We talked all night long, and I was just in the best mood… until I saw him waiting for Mandy to get done working… she was coming over to his place… (GRRR) It was a “pot” thing, the one characteristic I don’t like about Mike Minor. But, everyone has their phases, right?

Monday was completely hectic. I picked up for roommate number two, because he was supposed ill. Truth be knownst… he had only gotten an hour of sleep because he was up all night playing a freaking VIDEO GAME. He’s beyond obsessed. But, his loss… I made over 120 dollars, on LUNCH!

So, there was chaos as the shift change happened. I lost a tip due to computer complications, and blah blah blah. I started my next shift in a tizzy. But, I was working right next to Mike Minor. All night, we were talking, making each other laugh, flirting. I told him I was thinking of cutting my hair, which is now a little past mid-back. “Don’t, guys like girls with long hair.” I vowed never to cut my hair again 🙂

The night was pretty steady, and as it came closer to them cutting the floor, Mike and I kept talking. I was doing my sidework when he came up to me and asked if I wanted to go outside and smoke with him. So… I did. We were just starting to talk when two other people joined us. I got back inside, called Mikey (my roomie) to tell him to get me in twenty minutes. I was almost done when Mike Minor asked me to stay and help him roll silverware. So, I did. We talked more, laughed, and he said he was heading home to Missouri for Christmas, but would be back by New Years. I think we are both working New Year’s Eve… I may have to kiss that boy at midnight, if I ever get the guts up to do it.

It was just SO much fun… every time there was nothing to do, he would walk over to me and we would talk. There is just something about him… maybe it’s his huge blinky blue eyes, or his perfect teeth, or his whacky sense of humor and the distinctive voice, or his love for kids… I dunno, I just… like him, and I HATE crushes. ARGH. I’ll see him after Christmas… who knows? Maybe this year for Christmas, Santa will give me some BALLS to actually ask the guy out 🙂 Later kids