::head cuddles::

The only way to describe a head cuddle… when something or someone has you so giddy, that the only thing you can do besides grab something squishy and squeeze it tightly to let out all your “excitement” is to bring your shoulder and ear together, smile, and “head cuddle” yourself. That is kinda how I felt today.

The crush on Mike Minor… started out teeny, barely a tickle at the back of my brain. Now… when I see him, I find myself sighing to myself, or trying to find something to do in the vacinity of where he is standing just to start conversation… in other words, it’s getting ridiculous.

This morning, he was working. So, I did my normal set up the restaurant stuff and after our pre-shift meeting, the smokers all popped outside for a quickie. I was out there, and Mike was nowhere to be seen. So, I was chatting with other employees and somehow, the “Show-Me” state came into play. I couldn’t remember for the life of me what state was the “Show-Me” state. I know Texas is the Lone Star State, Illinois is the Land of Lincoln, Florida is the SunShine state… then, Mike walks out, “The Show-Me State is Missouri, where I’m from.” By this time, everyone had basically finished smoking, even I was down to just a few more drags.

Everyone started to head in, just as Mike started his cigarette. So, I stood out there with him. And… we just had stupid conversation, about Meramac Caverns in Missiouri, and how I have driven to California twice, and just… stupid conversation, but it made my day.. head cuddles. I would find myself watching to see where he was looking, see if he ever peeked over at me… I’m such a geek, nothing will ever happen, hence the reason I DETEST CRUSHES.

One thing I love about Mike Minor… he holds my gaze. I find that if you are trusting person, and you trust others, you have no issues holding someone’s gaze. Although, when he looks me in the eyes while we are speaking, I find that I have to turn away, afraid that the blush in my cheeks will give off enough heat to start a fire. He has the most amazing blue eyes, they give him such a innocence that you just want to hug him.. ::sigh:: I’m a geek… I’ll get over the crush soon.

On a side track- I’ve been so good about not having sex, I am half tempted to regain my virginity, which, YES ladies, is possible. If you obstain from sexual intercourse for two years, your hymen grows back. Maybe if I can do that, I can be a better person… or something. I only have… 17 and a half more months to go (blah). We’ll see how that goes. Alright, enough of my day-dreamy experiences. I am out, tomorrow Mike’s dad is getting re-married, I have to strive to look cute… later!