Chapters of my life

I am so glad, I am a writer.

I was able to go back and see me, here.

Really see me.

Ive been up and down and lost what i I Thought was the greatest love of my life. I have to be honest, did I loose him long ago?I dont think so. I know I love him. That love is real. My love is real. My love burns as an energy and energy is a driving force. True, and real.

what of this flame with  warmth?

Everything came to light and my most sacred of all secrets, that love, that I didnt want my ex to know about found out. Its the button i didnt want pushed.

i cant even begin to react. I can’t afford to do that.

My only reaction is music and my tears.

They are just rolling. I just feel, and there they go. Jumping fro this ship of emotion.

Time is rolling forward.

I have to notice a pattern in my history. Whatever it is I can’t afford to repeat the same mistakes.