Amour, Annoyance and Arbitration

*hugs her cyber journal*
Every time I come here to write I cant help but think back on the days that past. I stared this journal when I was living at my parents house. Back when my father was alive. So much has changed since then. I dont think that I was every really spoiled, but ,..hehe You cant see outside the fish tank if your swiming in it right?

Well, things are going in parallel directions for me. This is so odd.
Last week things were going really well with my job.
Let me explain who I work for and what I do.
I work for Random house, the book publising company. We have affliations with Kodansha, Mondadori, knopf, Dell, Bantam, Bertslmann(really who made us who we are), Del-rey, Ballentine, and goldenbooks to name just a few.
I work in our distribution department. One part of my job, the tedious part is to label and send out different things. When Im doing that part, I sit at a station right next a girl who justloves to annoy chat and play all dam day long. Ive been distracted and been fucking up severly latlely.
My boss spoke to me this morning. I wont go into details but we all know how that went. So here I am, deflated once full of confidence. But I must be weak minded. I just have to forge on from here. I decided to double check my self from now on. If I do a system such as that, that will elminate any problems.
I must be dedicated and do my best.
I am doing my best from this point forward.
No looking back.
Other wise finally I have the social life Ive wanted for a while now.
I have a great guy Im seeing. Just thinking about him makes me blush. I have lots of friends and things to do. Not much money, but well.. thatis how that goes!
to be continuted!!…