My daddy, dead?

I was at work,and i checked my cell phone to see if i had gotten any calls and I had noticed my mother called 5 TIMES! I knew I owed her a library book but damn.

I go down stairs to call her back and she had even called the job. They told her I had left for the day.

So I head home to entertain my house guest from Ohio, and I saw my moms car in the drive way.

Shit, She really wanted that book back, and the money too, I thought.

I go inside and she had thislook on her face,..like,..I dont know what.

What made it worse is that she didnt want to say it right away.

She said “Have a seat”

So I took one, on the tip of my tonuge,..almost to tell her to just spit it out.

Then she said,” Daddy’s dead”

I never knew my heart could break soo much.

They said he died of a massive heart attack. He was working over time at his job….when the guy came in to realive him, he tried to wake him up,..but he wouldn’t wake up.

Oh daddy, I love you so much, and I know you know.

Ah,.. my adult life is really sucking so far.

Oh god, jesus,.. I miss him so.

Oh, God. I’m so sorry. I don’t know how you feel right now, and I don’t want to imagine it myself, because the pain must be so unbearable, so frightening. I don’t know if there’s anything I can say to help you, anything I can say to ease your pain. I am sorry. And I know you must be hurting. Stay close to the ones who love you right now, because they will be there to help you through. God bless.

Nothing I can say can help you…my stepdad died 3 years ago, of a massive heart attack. I can’t imagine if my real dad died though.

i know you don’t know me, but my deepest condolences to you, emotional wounds take a long time to heal, the scars remain, but even they fade with time. I’m sorry. (I’m not signed in, but my diary account name is Fallen Youth ) David

anablue

March 25, 2003

*hugs* -H.

Your father was a wonderful man. He loved you, and I loved spending time with him getting to know him. I will never forget him.