More on sleeping…

Ugh.  Yeah.  I’m getting slightly clearer now…

I’m trying to wake up somehow before Sara gets home.

See, naps always SOUND nice…  But I’ve generally felt like they are BAD for me.  At this point in life, I’ve gotten to where I’m good with 20 minutes or less naps.  Apparently that’s about the point where you can get some refreshment without going into deeper sleep.

I don’t get it.  I mean if I didn’t know better, I’d say my brain was somehow starved for blood.  This was one of the worst wake-ups, though I’ve also been more careful in trying to avoid falling asleep for too long during the day.

So…  I was watching "This film has not been rated".  Interesting IFC film on the MPAA ratings board.  LOTS of shady stuff going on there…

anyway, I made it through the movie this afternoon and was watching some of the DVD extras.  I knew I was feeling a bit sleepy, but didn’t think I was THAT close to falling asleep.  I dunno, maybe it was around 3…

ANYWAY…  I…  "awoke"(I’m using that term very loosely) a little after 4.  And I was just COM-PLETELY out of it…  I’m sitting/laying in the chair looking at the DVD menu.  And I have *NO* sense of what is going on whatsoever.  Like I said, it’s like my brain was starved of blood.  Like a foot that fell asleep and is trying to get it’s senses back.  I’m just sitting there thinking "what’s going on?"  "What day is it?"  "Did I go to work today?"  "What am I doing?"  Just SOOO foggy.  I pretty much realized I was watching the movie previously, but I couldn’t recall ANYTHING else for a good bit…  After a few minutes I kinda got to questioning if this was an afternoon and I had been to work earlier today, though that still seemed like a distant concept.  Time is a difficult concept at that point, but it seems like 5 minutes maybe and then I’ve more or less got the concept together of where I’m at in terms of location and time.  So I get up and move around, but I’m still WAY out of it.  Very foggy feeling.  Nothing is clear.  Nothing feels good…

It’s now about 5pm.  I’m definitely better….  I decided to try some food in hopes that would somehow be decent.  I didn’t know what else to try, so I went with a french bread pizza to try for some variety of food groups and a diet cherry pepsi for some caffiene.  It helps a little bit, but I’m used to this experience.  I’m going to be "not with it" until my sleep cycle gets reset tonight.

Strange that mind/body can be set so off-balance…  Another item I kinda wish I better understood…

I suppose I could go stand outside in the rain, but we’re supposed to go out in a bit, so that wouldn’t work too well…

Anyway, I’m just yakking.  (: