This year I have…

– Lost a very close friend
– Stopped smoking
– Started work
– Started writing another novel
– Got into college (!!!)
– Met some truly awesome people at said college
– Lost contact with a lot of other truly awesome people
– Started (and gave up on) making a skirt
– Only cut once all year, in February
– Started learning bass guitar
– Bought a £400 SLR digital camera
– Haven’t dieted all year AND
– Not really put on THAT much weight despite this
– Started to accept myself the way I am (!)
– Quit singing group
– Re-established love of collage
– Learnt how to screen print and batik
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Really, it feels like I haven’t done that much in 2006, but I guess ’05 was full of lots of small things, whereas ’06 had a few huge things (getting a job and starting college have completely changed my life and the dynamic of my day). Emotionally, last year was full of extremes, with months where I wouldn’t leave the house for fear of being ridiculed, and the start of college feeling like I’d never fit in or find anyone I felt comfortable around, before quickly changing to having people I feel like I’ve known all my life and feel like I can actually be myself around. It’s been less of a roller coaster and I feel a bit more stable now. At last, I feel like I know how to cope when things become overwhelming, or at least, I can put them into perspective. I know that in a few weeks time, what’s bothering me now will be a distant memory.
I think I’ve changed as a person, and I think I like the new me more. Or maybe I haven’t changed, maybe I’ve just allowed myself to be me.

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