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I slept in a cave on saturday night. Well, I say slept, I was only actually asleep for half an hour. Mainly I sat up drinking and smoking. Was really cold. I don’t know who’s idea it was to go camping in a cave in the middle of winter. The people who brought blankets (ie, me) ended up colder then those who didn’t, as those who didn’t nicked them all. I ended up with two coats on, though, and was still freezing.

I got my nose pierced on saturday during the day. It was out by 9am sunday. I knocked it half out in the cave, and tried to put it back in at home, which really hurt, so I just took it out. Everyone keeps asking how my nose is, and I always reply, "my nose is fine, my knee hurts!" I ripped my knee open. Ok, slight exaggeration, but not by much. I do have a massive gash across it, which I only noticed on saturday because I also ripped my jeans. I walked into a wooded post sticking out of the ground on a grassy ledge by the cave. Walked right into, and over it. Hurts like hell whenever I bend my knee, which isn’t too snazzy.

Don’t know what else to put. Got my modelling money today, but cheque payable to my mum, so will take 4 days to enter her account, and another four to transfer to my account. Other then that, have no money. Will have to dig some out of my savings account for presents, and use £15 I have left of pocket money to live on until christmas, I think. Hopefully will get money at christmas, which I can spend on New Year celebrations. Maybe will get a job next year.

I don’t want to cut anymore. The thought of it upsets me, which I suppose is good. I was reading something earlier and was being simultantiously triggered and revolted. I don’t know where that leaves me. With a headache, I guess.

My hamster, Dawn, has lost a lot of weight and some of her fur has fallen out. Think we changed her food recently, so changed it back today. Will take her to the vets soon to get her checked out. Hope she’ll be ok.

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