Letter 4: to my sibling

I’m picking my younger brother for this one (I have an older brother, a younger brother, and a twin–I already wrote one to my twin on day 1).

Dude,

I feel like we couldn’t be more different. Even growing up. I was honestly such a bad older sister. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for putting you through my shit my whole life. I’m glad we’re closer now. But the closeness seems fake. Maybe it’s not fake. It’s just that I still don’t really understand you. I was like, the biggest nerd in school and you were… whatever the opposite of that is. I cared about everything and you didn’t care about anything or anyone. It’s easy to listen to you, it’s easy to give you advice. You always ask and mostly always listen… You’re just opinionated and aggressive. I never want to give you a reason to get mad because you take so long letting it go. I’m happy we’re closer. I’m happy you come to me and talk to me… You used to only go to Soph. Her you could understand. That’s so funny actually. You two understand each other and she understands me, but you never did.

I’m proud of you. You’ve come sooooo far. You pushed your way through battles. You learned so much. You worked your ass off. Don’t give up on your dreams, kid. You excel at everything you do. You’re already rocking this adulthood thing better than I am. I think the older you get, the closer we’ll get.