Away

dont even know where to start

here goes nothing…

i did what made me happy in the instance that i felt it and in doing so i’ve ripped out the hearts of two loves

my heart is hideous

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for the new

This town dont feel mine

I’m fast to get away FAR

I dressed you in [HIS] clothes

Now drive me far – away

It feels good to know your mine

Now drive me far – away

FAR away

I dont care where just FAR – away

And I dont care

FAR – away

And I dont care where just FAR – away

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i dont know exactly what happened or what i was expecting

i dont even know what i wanted

the truth is it just felt so amazing

it seemed my old love was no longer mine

and i tried to fill my new but familiar void, fast

and so i did dress you in his clothes

then i thought i found a new love through you

i was ready to drive it away with me

anywhere i could

it felt so good to have you there

all the while it felt sometimes

you were like a guise for what i missed so much,

my old love

i wanted to keep going to this new place

that reminded me of that love

that i felt was so…

FAR AWAY

i’m so sorry

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for the old & reborn

I watched you change

Into a fly

I looked away

You were on fire

I watched a change in you

It’s like you never had wings

Now you feel so alive

I’ve watched you change

I took you home

Set you on the glass

I pulled off your wings

Then I laughed

I watched a change in you

It’s like you never had wings

Now you feel so alive

I’ve watched you change

It’s like you never had wings…

I look at the cross

Then I look away

Give you the gun

Blow me away

I watched a change in you

It’s like you never had wings

Now you feel so alive

I’ve watched you change

And you feel alive

You feel alive

I’ve watched you change

It’s like you never had wings…

You change

…i’m over…

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its tru really

i have changed to the most disgusting person

it is like i’ve never had wings

you’ve even said you’ve lost what you loved in me

but in my new moment i admit i did feel incredibly alive

how selfish of me

the only thing that kept my sights on you was the hope

for the ressurection of our old love

i disgust myself to the extent of a filthy pig

the grotesque animal that i am

the most unbeautiful thing i myself have ever met

how brave you are to believe in a beast like me

i am indefinitely undeserving

i am nothing

capable of nothing

and so deserving of precisely nothing

but to think that you want to give me a chance…

i could not imagine

but i’m glad that at least the hope i had

came to become something

and now i have this chance

to make it right

i only fear

my own insecurities

but that aside

i am yours

forever

i will make another change

and grow wings from ashes

we will be happy again

in case of fire

if i am to ruin it all over again

here is my gun

BLOW ME AWAY

i love you